Tranquillo Time's blog
So I moved to the Savannah GA, area after being harassed on ends in Upper Michigan and going through severe depression being stuck in a cold place havng a hard time getting food. For being the only minority in my town. I move to Savannah GA to move to a more diverse area and people are really rude here. Everything here is a money grab, charging 40$ for crazy parking for 2 hours, the driving is awful, have to deal with two police Savannah and Chatham county police. I am shocked at how I have been treated by a lot of minorities, very rude here too and some tried to use me. So not only am I going to have to be cautious about racism and being stereotyped who I am around, I have to deal with not having a community I can trust and fit in as a minority not being able to connect with other Black and Brown people has baffled me a lot. Some people will read this and say I need to change me. I am not the problem!
It's Juneteenth today and I think of some of my ancestors who were not free on 4th of July Independence Day. In America, when fighting racism/discrimination people like to tell you to get over the past, it happened a long time ago. Nobody on this site, even other melenated people can tell me, nor speak on my exp living in a country that's still not truly free. I was excited to come to Chicago, I have anxiety because when I visited on my way to San Jose CA people were rude. I keep to myself and am alone in life, I try to move about so depression does not consume me. I decided to visit in June and I booked a place and the people were rude and very bigoted. Ignored my message about what time I can check in. People see I have a Puerto Rican name, I have funds, and when they see me it's worse they think they can scam and finesse me. I had to cancel after spending 494$, almost 500$ in cash and had to find another place. It's Juneteenth and in a country that's suppose to be free and equal to all regardless of race, background, and creed it is not to me as a Black and Brown man.
To begin with, growing up I knew I was never going to be popular. Being average looking, not buff, not rich, long wolly hair black and brown guy. My features were not desirable to the world. I knew I was not the Latino or Desi heart throbe character, that gets the hot girl and reward in the end, that receives everyones love and acceptance. I don't really look like either one of my parents, so it was hard because I felt I was treated harshly from them.
Next, I realized that I am not popular amongst family and peers, I decided to build myself up. Pour my own glass to the top, forget waiting around for someone to accommodate me. Not letting the popularity contest get to me was something I had to learn. I look in the mirror and I am enough. I dont need validation from no human in this realm, because I decided to not perticipate in the popularity contest and not subscribe to the superficalness of it all. When you are uplifted by your own will, intellect, and esteem that is all you need.
In conclusion, You have all that you need to stay motivated and determined to improve yourself for the better. Don't subscribe to the popularity contest and it won't get to you. Thanks for reading! Kind regards, Tranquillo Time
I'm of Black American, Afro Puerto Rican, Bangladeshi, Malagasy, and Siouan Native Amercan descent. I have no community or tribe to call my own, so I search for friendship. Searching for a friendly meet up for people in the Chicago Rosemont/Jefferson Park area, has been a nightmare. Someone dmed me about wanting to try pressure points on me, which could do permanent damage to me, even put me in the upper room. Another person, I told them no not interested, still keeps contacting me. Had the nerve to hop in my dms, ask me for pics and refused to give me any back. People are hella unscrupulous on here, a lot of people need diversity lessons. When you see someone different than you, don't treat them bad treat them nicely.
I have been trying to maintain not being a pick me person. A pick me person, will do anything to be chosen and deemed as worthy by others: Getting attention by putting others down to look cool, doing anything for validation of people, and begging people to meet up/be your friend. Don't give people the power to make you feel like crud, control you, and raise your anxiety by wondering if they choose you. If they don't choose you, it's their lose. Their are 7 billion + people on this earth. Move on, you will find someone who values your time and effort. It can be a strenuous task, but will be worth it, when you meet that person who does not put you in a pick me positon. Another thing to avoid, is people faking like they pick you, seems they will choose you when in all actually they are looking for their own selfish wants and desires. People will do subtle things like lead you on, to make it seem like they choose you, that fake friendship Benedict Arnold individual who hoodwinked you out of nowhere, will soon realize their actions of how they did you. Once they realized you are not theirs anymore, to be deceived and played with. Stay strong warriors! Treat others the way you want to be treated! Kind regards Tranquillo Time